34 Weeks

I've been terrible at updating. Probably because there isn't a whole lot to say, luckily. We've just been cruising. Today I'm 34 weeks. 34 weeks! Crazy. My big goal was 32 weeks. Now we wait until 38w 2d. That's when we've scheduled my repeat c-section. Really not looking forward to that, you guys. I'll deal though. Anything has got to be better than last time, right? I had to visit L&D this week to schedule my c-section. I had a mini-breakdown. I cried walking through those halls. So many sad memories of that place. Let's hope that in 4+ weeks we walk out of there with new, non-sucky memories.

If ya'll didn't know, the end of the 3T is no joke. Who does this a second time on purpose? Seriously. Michelle Duggar needs to be declared insane. She's done it. . .what? 17 times or something like that?! Two and through for sure!!

What's Chan up to? She's doing really well. Her talking is nuts now. She says the funniest stuff. We don't know where she comes up with half the stuff she says.
She's driving us crazy of course. She's two and half! Last night was her first night in her big girl bed. She did great. I swear I freak about every transition prior to and then Chan does great. We only have one last vestige of babyhood to say goodbye to. . .DIAPERS!!

Chan eating peanut butter toast.

Chan eating glue.

Well hello there, 3T

We've never met before! It's official. I'm more pregnant than I have ever been. 26w6d. The emotions are plentiful. Relief, happiness, sadness all rolled into one (larger by the day) pregnant woman. I'm so so thankful to have made it this far but we've still got a ways to go. Then I'm sad that Chan didn't get the advantages that this baby will have. Chan went through so so much and hopefully this baby won't.
Frankly I'm just not good at being pregnant. My body (obviously) and my mind. The inherent vulnerability of pregnancy just isn't good for a person like me. Oh well. MG keeps reminding me that I've only got 2.5 more months to go. Which is really just a blip in the scheme of things.

Some other hi-lights:
I had my longest cervical measurement yet last week at 25weeks. I measured over 4. This is huge! I feel so much better about actually making it to the end.

The progesterone shots aren't easy, breezy. The first two were easy but after that they've pretty much sucked. Itchy, burny welts. Ugh. This kid better like me!

I don't go back for another cx measurement until next, next week. I also have my gestational diabetes test. I didn't get to do this with Chan. So that'll be a new one for me. And finally I'll get a Rhogam shot. I'm RH- so yet another thing to plan for.

Thanks for checking in on us!

What's Chan up to?

Busy trying to look cool.

Digging in the dirt aka her favorite thing to do EVAH!





We took Channing to Sesame Street Live. She was basically mad the whole time because she couldn't go up on stage with them and dance.


Our own little pig-pen

P after P Update

I'm currently 21w4d pregnant. The time is really flying by. I've been feeling good. Weeks 6-15 were rough though! I was never sick with Chan so morning sickness was new for me. But midway through week 15 the nausea left as quickly as it came on.

We are having another girl! Yea for not having to buy new stuff! (Yes, MG is totally fine with another girl.) Anatomy scan went great and don't kid yourself I asked that tech to look at everything TWICE. I said 'we don't really like surprises'. One of the bad things about being a high risk/NICU mom is that you learn about all the things that can go wrong with a pregnancy. You learn about all the conditions/syndromes/defects. The human body is such a complicated thing. It's truly amazing that most of the time everything works out fine.

I've been going to the doctor every week now. Kind of a pain but I told them I would go there every day if it meant never stepping foot in the NICU again. I get a weekly progesterone shot and then every other week I get an ultrasound to measure my cervix. Right now, I'm sitting at 3.95. Anything between 3-5 is considered good. My Dr. feels really good about my progress so far. He told me yesterday that he thinks if I was going to have problems they would have started by now.

My anxiety level is okay right now. It usually inches up the farther out I get from my appt. then it goes back down after the appt. Just a vicious cycle.

I'm huge ya'll! Ok not really but my dear friend at work the other day looked at me and said "I think you are as big now as you were when you delivered Chan" and you know what SHE'S RIGHT!! I shall not commit the preemie mom cardinal sin of complaining about being pregnant but this is going to be a whole new experience for my body!

Chan has stopped screaming 'noooo' at us when we ask if she wants a sister. Now she points to my stomach and says 'baby out. see her'. We tell her the baby is too little right now but she'll see her in 4 months.

Pregnant after Prematurity

Alternate post title: It's official, I'm insane.